Be Still and Know

I have been reminded of the scripture in Psalms 46: "Be Still and Know that I am God". I am amazed by my ability to get stuck in my head, to throw away the surprise, mystery and adventure of life with my Savior and resort to thoughts of worry and self destruction. I am not perfect, nor do I claim to be. If you ever have a conversation with me you will know that I am quick to admit my failures (particularly in raising children). I am not under any assumption of perfection. However, when it comes to my relationship with God, I feel like I'm always failing. Whose voice is that? I am reminding myself of his great love. His remarkable sacrifice of his son. His incredible leading and calling and faithfulness. Why do I have some need to be "perfect" in my faith journey?

Maybe perfection lies not in my outward achievements, but in my inward seeking and searching for Him, for guidance, for help, for redemption in my failures and sin. I am humbled by his gentle Spirit, that once I come to him fully aware, fully open, he is so quick to assure and remind me of his desire for me. How wonderful is that?

I desire to crawl up into his lap. To have my Loving Father stroke my hair, speak truth of his love into my heart and soul, and to rest in his goodness, generosity and abundance.